Here again after 9 years and struggling

[Mona52]

Hi inpain,

I wanted to stop by so many times before...
I was also here many years ago (2004 to 2007) and I found myself back again.

It sounds like you are still very focused on him. I can see why when he cries on the phone with your S. I know you would do anything for your child. The best thing you can do it to focus on yourself and not on H or his R with S. It might sound harsh at first, but it is a kindness to both of them.

He is making this hard on you by being nice sometimes. I hate when they do that! But you can get to a place where it doesn't matter if they are nice or mean. Your mood cant be affected by their words or actions. It is hard to get there, but ou will become stronger and happier just trying to make it to that point.

You can do this!