This brings up a whole 'nother can of worms. He is seeking out new girls. Blowing off seeing the kids to do so. It was hard enough thinking of how I could ever trust him again but now it seems it would be impossible.
Maybe it isn't. Perhaps others have done so. I just don't see how. If I hadnt looked at his emails I could have potentially gotten into a false R thinking we had his one (very long) mistake to work through.
I think about it this way. I live in the Eastern Time Zone. Let's say I wanted to walk to Alaska. Im not going to to worry about whether I get killed in a dust storm in South Dakota. Im not going to worry about getting eaten by a bear in Saskatchewan.
Im going to worry about not getting hit by a car crossing the street in front of my house.
My point is that theres not reason to focus on the dangers you may not ever get to. Why does it matter right now whether you will be able to rebuild trust with him? By the time you are in that position, you and he will be totally different people.
Wayward. Is wayward. Im not sure that there are varying levels. Is seeking out an ex really all that different from meeting someone new? Is it better? Worse? I dont really think theres a difference for how it impacts you.
