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Thank you to those who posted recently on my thread. It us appreciated and I reflect on the observations.I hope to reply to each soon.

I am OK and I am concentrating on me for the moment.

Last year a lot of my energy was used up just to get through....ii was surviving. This year I intend to live. Like all change this will take time but I am on my way.

I also have a roadmap to becoming a better me. I thought I was well on my way but again I think I need to keep focused more on that and not get side tracked. This will also take time, but I kinda like the guy in the mirror already and that is after years of detesting him.

Regardless of the outcome and any mistakes along the way I am proud of my stand. It seemed to be like standing in the ocean and getting pushed back by the waves. Some knocked me down, others flow past.
I have not backed down from it and I still face it head on. I think that just being able to resist was good. Now i think i want to start swimming. Stsnding has made me stronger, now maybe it is time to mive forward.

I had slipped on some of my initial 180s, not major, but enough for me to step back and review and now press reset.

My main challenge will be to be truly happy. I am doing what I want with people I like spending time with. But I fall short of real happiness.
I hope to figure that out this year too. But I am doing more stuff with more people and enjoying myself more than I have in years.

That was a longer post than planned.

Happy thoughts friends.