Yesterday me and my brother went tailgating at the Texans game! They won the game and the division title. We had a blast ate all kinds of badass bbq and had all kinds of beers. Too much fun! Since we were born in Cincinnati and moved to Houston at a young age we are dual fans of the Bengals and the Texans, which causes some healthy rivalries between us and our buddies. All in good fun though (Who Dey!)

Went to IC this morning for the first time since the holidays, I gave her the run down of my interactions with W and family and how she clammed up on Christmas Day after spending several days at the house and being intimate with me a few times. IC seems as confused as I am about it. She is thinking W is trying to re live a part of her life that she feels she missed out on. And that it is probably related to something that happened to her during childhood. Then IC started asking me what I have been doing for myself.

This was when I realized that I have been keeping pretty busy and staying pretty positive about everything that has been going on. Not always but for the most part. She commented that I seem like a fairly self-actuallized person and that I should feel lucky to have the outlook that I have. That she has been doing this for over twenty years and sees a lot of people in this situation that just can't handle what is happening to them. I have to say that these boards and yalls advice have really helped me. I am seeing more and more the path that gets us through this crap. And it makes more sense everyday. Thanks to everyone here that are helping each other through these tough times.


M: 39 W:38 D: 11 S: 7
T: 18
M:13
I suspect problem: 8/15
ILYB: 9/15
Never quit on love
I ask her to leave:10/15