Well, got through Christmas and New Years. Got home a little early on NYE and she was home. I thought for sure she would go out. In any case, I asked her if she wanted to watch the ball drop with me and she said no and went into her room. So sad we can't even enjoy a moment like that together. I can't tell if she just doesn't want to lead me on or if being in the same room makes her upset. I know she feels I control her and am keeping her from her freedom since she says she wants out, but getting to that point takes time. I still am not sure if I DB by being loving from a distance or turning the tables and dumping her.
I think the hardes parts of the glimmers of hope. And they could be nothing but my misinterpretation. It is little things she does. So she is pretty cold overall, but then initiates a conversation to say she read something or that she watch a program I taped months ago about divorce. Like she is questioning herself. Either that, or looking for more evidence to bolster her position!
In any case, I have some freinds and family saying, enough is enough. Do you really want to be with someone capable of treating you like she did? And other saying, if you love her, it could win out. Don't give up.
I will spend more time on GAL and being gone a lot. I will try to be more the dumper than the dumpee the rest of January.
H:54 W:46 D:11 D:21 M:12 BD:1/15 In-house Separation 2/15 DB started 7/15, W sees consistency 9/15 Dropping the rope and having her leave 2/16, moves 5/16 Reconciliation 1/17 Obviously still struggling
