Random thought of today. I do not speak to my mom. Haven't in 7+ years. It [censored], but it is much healthier for me and my kids to not speak to her. Long abusive, manipulative, guilt ridden story.

I detached from her. I do still love my mom, and always will. I do not plan to ever reconnect with her.

Now, I know that I can do this with XW, if I didn't see her often. Also, I know that if I go to that level I may never want to see her again. I was bitter against my mom for many years, and I don't want to be that way with XW. It took counseling to get over my anger with mom. I am struggling with that idea today. It may be exactly what I need to do. Maybe that is what truly letting go may be like for me.

So, can I let go and not be bitter? How do I let go with love? I truly believe that I am on to something here...

35
3 boys
Not my circus, not my monkeys anymore....