Proud of all I accomplished during the holiday break. First and foremost I showed my girls how to rise above. I was not perfect but it was a time of love and peace and authenticity. We all made the best of the present and gratitude was overflowing yet we were all strong in what and who we valued. H never contacted the girls and they chose not to contact him. This was not a decision made in anger or retribution. I can't explain it but H doesn't exist anymore and my girls don't have any connection to this man. I am most empathetic but honestly he has discarded me in every way.
It is if I am texting my accountant re: bills. Nothing more. I pray every day for him to show some emotion but he is devoid of anything. I must carry on and not think too much about him. I keep thinking the guy I married would insist I carry on and be there for the girls.
I will post more later on a new thread. I think it is time for some new perspective.
M:25 years at BD w/ 2 daughters BD: 5/14 Separated 6/14 - H moved cross country w/OW D Final 9/17
“I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it.” ― Maya Angelou
