Back to square one, not sure I can do this again!

[trumpet]

MB,

After BD, I did all the wrong things, just like almost everyone else on this board.
Wife and I are Christian, got our pastor involved.
My wife realized she was in the wrong with the EA, stopped it, but was angry at me. I was hurt and angry at her.

She started to want to try to piece things back together. I got huge fistfulls of hope, and shared my hurt, thinking we could be broken together, and lift each other up. I was working on a porn addiction at the same time.

Well, I started to want to 'fix' things, and she started talking with OM again, as she was hurt by the words I said.

As of this morning, she hates me with every fiber of her being, can't stand me, and has paperwork for file for divorce being made as I type this.

So, yes, I had WW want to reconcile and 'try' things, but once the hurt got too close, she bolted again. It [censored].