Back to square one, not sure I can do this again!

[Rain75]

MB....that's what we're here for. You're better than me. When I feel that down...and trust me its a lot of the time...I haven't really posted here. But I should. It helps to vent.

Im sorry youre at square one again. It feels shitty. I know. You think you're just as bad as the first time but you aren't. You got dressed and went out this time. And not just driving around either. That is progress! You also WANT to go to work. Again, progress.

You have to allow yourself to feel good about those things. But sweetheart, next time, listen to your daughter. She was right. I know that it's hard. I still want to see if he is home and if he is, who he is with. But I know it will hurt me and hasn't he hurt me enough? Why add to my own misery? So I stay my butt home.

Have you read DR again? Im starting today. I also read sandis rules again last night. And reading other people's threads helps too.

I hope today is better than yesterday for you. For both of us.

Rain