court date is around the corner

[Fogg]

Angel
If your having thoughts like that please go and get some help for yourself. I understand how difficult it is to accept the loss of your W and feel your life is over but it is far from over. You have a great deal to live for and two children that will need you throughout your life. You have no ideal what your W will do, she may D you or you two may R in the future. Things always get much worse before they get better but you have to trust you will be ok no matter what happens. Get back to the DB basics and take care of yourself. Do not contact or lash out at her because of your pain, that will no help you. You also have to stop looking at this like she's doing this to you. She is in pain and trying to fix herself, not hurt you. I know it might feel that way but it's not personal. She's just a broken person just ad you are, just as most of us are.

Are you in IC? I would suggest it for everyone, it's a good place to talk out your feelings and get a handle on them.