Well i had a brief conversation with W after 3 weeks
She tells me i need to move on and that when we talk it upsets her and she feels like shes never going to be free. I acknowldged her feelings and she did respond that she knows im open to R and counselling . I thanked her for acknowledging that.
I guess my only option now is to just keep dark and moving on. To be a better person and to learn from my mistakes. Living apart has helped me see how neediness can be a unappealing quality.
I really dont know what she is thinking anymore it is like there is a no connection anymore.
Its hard to remain postive when it seems hopeless. I guess at the moment its she chose separation as an answer to suit her needs and wants and walked away. She managed to blame me for everything that was wrong in our marriage and her life. I also got the re write of our marriage focusing on negatives, all the positive and my good points seem to be forgotten/lost.
I really thought we could work through issues and be a better couple. I knew we needed help i asked to go to counselling/coaching together.
I read sometime they come back after youve let go and i think if i get to that stage i wont be there. The gap just seems to get wider the less contact we have. Maybe that what detaching is. The ability to clearly be unaffected by the other persons actions or words. Its the ability to have no emotions tied into it. I dont need her to complete me or make me happy. I did want her to share my life and be a team, that we had something great before we got bogged down with everything compounded by our lack of communication and inability to resolve issues.
