Well another blow to my heart. I just saw that my wife deleted every single picture of me from her facebook. I dont know what was the point of me deleting my facebook if i am still going to search her name on google and look at her facebook. I keep hurting myself. I dont know why. I might as well grab a knife and start cutting my wrist thats basically what i keep doing. I keep telling myself the pain is numb theres nothing she can do thats going to hurt me more , i mean she has kept my daughters away from me for 4months. thats all ! But sure enough this little thing hurts, and it's a low blow to me as silly as it sounds. I love this woman to death.
who am i kidding? only myself. I am only fooling myself when i say that i dont need her, i dont need her to be happy. fake it till i make it? make it where ? to divorce? which is basically where i am going to. I am have board a train that is destined to crash and everyone is panicking but i have to fake that everything is going to be ok? BS! I am done. My life is done. The family i alwys wanted as i kid is done. while im sitting here typing this sentence im crying like hell. This pain is unbearable. can you guys hear me cry?
Why is this woman so cruel? I just want to call her and tell her she is F*** B***. but with my lack of self respect i will probably follow with a question and ask her if she wants to take me back?
