PigPen, I know my reply was a long time in coming, but I can't thank you enough for your post. It really helped me parse what I am going through and helped me accept my feelings. I have read and re-read your post a few times over the weeks. Just knowing that others have been through this helps. I have been telling more co-workers and friend. I have received more support, but the reality of my sitch is also really starting to hit home because of it. I am in my office right now working on the D paperwork. I have a 30-day deadline and I still have a lot left to do. I am thankful that I had the holidays to work on all of this. Unfortunately, that translated into much less time spent with my children. Except for the oldest, they don't really know why I have been spending so much time at the office. I am scanning documents and trying to make sense of my STBXWs terrible filing system. I took boxes of folders to my office and I still can't find critical documents. I have not had time to GAL, with rare exception. I have not had time to post. I feel like an emotional wreck right now. I am getting stir-crazy in my office. no one to keep me company. Geez, I miss having someone with whom to be intimate. I don't know how my W would willingly choose this. Insane.
