Updated/still thinking about next steps

[kyrie]

Oops, I see on page 10 I meant to say it IS a big deal. Ugh.
I haven't bought it, but read most of DR (I think - it may have been DB). I can't keep books around because he'll find them and sharpshoot everything about them.
I don't think anyone answered this:
"Some of the things he said last night was that he wished I stayed up and even initiated or at least showed interest (not in his words). Even after talking about that kind of revelation!

Are you saying I shouldn't continue to show interest, try to meet at least some needs?"
Specifically, the impression I have from both Trumpet and Zues, is that meeting physical needs and I think "180" on being affectionate would help. But sometimes the DB thing seems to be to not pursue or do that. So it's confusing...





I'll answer Sandi then start anew (I guess).
I guess I may come across as self-righteous - dunno how you totally avoid that. He has said I was like a Pharaisee, which is funny because he does that type of behavior!
With those whom I reached out to, I sought advise and help for this sitch. Maybe I wasn't specific about it with them, about only helping me. Most felt really helpless and only offered to pray, etc. until I asked for anything else. They can and have been confidential thus far, but again, they don't know how to deal with the depths of this really.