Finally! 2015 is coming to an end. :-)

[Vanilla]

I am going to say something very different Anc.


These are just feelings, that's all feelings.

Not facts, not thoughts, or actions just feelings.

You have them and face them because they will heal you. If you walk to the pain to the feelings they will change. Deny them and they cling and reemerge. This way there is no guilt or shame. All of us have these thoughts if we are codependent or abused. We are coming to awareness.

Breathe, observe and write. Watch the feelings, accept them, you are exactly where you need to be.

Your mind is working out what it needs and your more primitive part is finding this unfamiliar, so stuff is being thrown up from your more primitive limbic brain.

It is creating fire storms of feelings. Let them unfold, feel them, observe them.

Say thank you for the gift of them, feelings, thoughts are not behaviours. They just are.

I will let you into a big secret, this rush follows the numb. The numb is over, this is change. This is feelings, just watch observe, and write. I can not explain how important it is to write down all of the issues with WH. You may need it in case a sweet cycle starts.

I am looking forward to your anger, the next stage I think.

The programming WH gave you won't go as it is from a deeper place, it's up to you to find the tools to over write it with your own programming and you can have all the assistance you need to repair all of this. Mindfulness (observation) is the key, from that you can request feedback and absorb the best.

It's ok, it's right on schedule.

All manipulated Rs have this phase in breakup.

You are on your path, new realisations will come. Subjectivity will become objectivity.

V