Looking forward to the new year

[JulieH]

Mutatio I don't truly know anymore what I want. If he was willing to work on things I would be open and give us a chance and work torwards rebuilding. But him not initiating shows that the marriage will be no better for me. It shows he is not vested.

I can give lists of things that really bothered me in relationship that will justify my decision to divorce. (Not that it's necessarily even my decision to make) I actually have and deleted them. He can probably do this as well.

knowing he is capable of walking away from young kids and a wife who was faithful and willing to work on marriage says a lot to me too. I don't want to be back on these boards in 5 years, older and with less options either.