You are an amazing and compationate person, so please never forget that. If we didn't have any feelings we wouldn't be human. You reaching out for us, shows great courage.
Take each day as it comes. We all have our good and bad ones. Please hold on to life, if God didn't feel you could handle it, he wouldn't put you through this.
Your path is already defined (like all of us here), and you are learning from your situation to be a better you as it's what God wants.
