Oh Mutatio, you have so many friends "out there". So many of us are uplifted and inspired by your gentle, caring nature - by your willingness to stop in our threads and add your authentic words of support. You are a treasure to us here.
I wish your W could see the same. Sometimes, when you're in the middle of a situation, it's just too hard to take a step out and look at it from another point of view. (I'm referring to your W.) I think the best shot you've got, is going to be getting to a point of detachment. The point that you know you will be fine, no matter how your situation goes.
I believe you're heading in the right direction. You've admitted the possibility that it may not work out the way you hope, and you're taking steps to be okay with the possibility. From everything I've learned since I've been here, posting and sharing with others, that is KEY to many situations turning around. Some may just be unsalvageable, for now. Who knows what the future may bring?
I believe in you M. I believe you are a man of worth. I believe losing you as an H would be the greatest folly your W could ever make. She may be too stubborn to see it right now. You are always there, ready and waiting, silently and patiently. I foresee true panic on her part if that ever starts to change.
I could be wrong. There are many WAS who do leave the best thing they ever had. You are doing everything you can to salvage the R, but it may not work out. I truly believe you will be fine if that's the way it turns out. Heartbroken, like me...but fine. A strong, good man who did everything he could to keep his family together. I have so much respect for you for that alone.
I have even more respect for you for the thought you've put into things, for the changes you've made to become better, stronger - I think you are one in a million.
You have a fan club here. I'm not sure you realize that. You are never alone, really. We may be "virtual friends", but it is a real friendship, nonetheless. It is a friendship that strengthens both ways. Support in what has to be one of the hardest things to ever go through.
I can never thank you enough for the time you've taken to share your thoughts with me - the stories and parables you've taken the time to write out on my thread to keep me sane, and on a path which moves forward. You're a treasure, M.
