There are several things in play: chronic alcohol use, the porn, compulsive behaviors (cleanliness, order, buying sometimes). I know he has so much ammo. He's scared of my nuclear ICBM. I can't make him understand that he's in control really, and I would never ever do that. I even said I had the capacity to RUIN Jason, my ex, while he was on active duty. I could have destroyed his security clearance (remember, I was active too - lots of ways to do that, esp. when I was a security officer), ruined his chance at retirement,etc. I explained that I could never do that to Jason and I could never to that to him. FWIW.
Bless you Trumpet.
Me: 42, H: 38 Married: 12 years (second M for me) 14D, 9D 2015 EA (PA??), porn addict, *pastor/counselor* MLC
At a counselor, he said he wanted the marriage but not to work on himself w/a IC. Piecing?