dday, rebuilding

[dday]

I won't do it mu. I REALLY need to just walk away. As Sandi said on somebody's thread. Dump her back. Let her see and feel me walking away. May not bring her back, but letting go will help me either way.

I think that I am doing ok, honestly. Haven't cried. Functioning better than I have in months. Don't like this, and I don't think I will ever be glad it happened, but I accept that this is where I am.

The hardest thing for me now is that I honestly think we'll end up together again. I need to let that go. May be a pipe dream. But throughout this whole thing, since bd, I have thought we would work it out as soon as she us ready.

How do I get rid of that line of thought? Please share ideas, because that is the rope anchoring me to her.