Parents: help me parenting while separated (2)

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I have been away since the 28th.
Instead of staying alone at home I accepted a friend's invitation to stay at her place.
So I have now visited two countries, stayed in two capitals and met wonderful people.
I have been away from computers.
My kids are always on my mind.
I have talked to STBXW three times. Haven't talked to her this year.
I know now I can live without her and don't miss her a lot, only the idea of marriage. I would keep M mainly because of the kids.
But I am not still at the point where I can wish STBXW good luck and farewell.
This new year will bring so much.
I can really see how it will be a decisive year.