I'm with fogg. Just keep posting, and we will keep posting back. I look forward to hearing from you and fogg both. Among many others, but I always try to follow you guys.
Never forget that there are many people who count on you! Not trying to put pressure on you, just trying to remind you that many others see value in you. Remember the people at your hearing, bail guy or whatever it was, they cared about you and had only barely met you.
Keep working on yourself. Play with the grandbaby whenever you can. Pray. Keep up on the heart doctors.
Be well, you are loved and respected. Chances are that h will figure that out someday. Chances are, it won't matter nearly as much by then.
35 3 boys Not my circus, not my monkeys anymore....