Leap Year

[beckyb]

Ancaire, I can relate to your faith question. I most of the time I don't pray that God will save my marriage because I don't want to get my hopes up. I believe God hates divorce and he could do a miracle. But I know my H has free will and he is choosing this path. Most of the time a I pray that my H will repent regardless of what that means for my marriage. I know that God can bring beauty from ashes and I pray for enough to faith to act on it. I don't know what my next steps should be and where I should live so I pray that God will reveal my next next.

Here's the bottom line for all of us who are Believers. If we say we trust God with our future we need to act accordingly.

And I am not as confident and together as I sound. It's a daily struggle. I know OW is back in her state and probably pretending to reconcile with H. But I also know she and H are still in an EA and probably planning a future together. I found an empty shipping box where she recently sent something to H. On the return address she used her first name and my H's last name. So I laid on my living room floor and cried for a few minutes.

I sent my settlement proposal to H's lawyer last week. L was on vacation. Monday or Tuesday H should see it. We have a court scheduled attorney conference on Jan 11 and a hearing in February. I expect to be divorced by March, 9 months after BD. Unbelievable but nothing I can do about it.

Judy, remember God hates what is happening to your marriage but he also wants you to be safe, healthy and happy. He will provide a way. Hang in there.