Oh, Becky. I'm really inspired by you, and the fact you seem to be making the most of an awful situation. I'm in a rough place right now. It seems like I make progress, and then start sliding back downhill. Maybe it's that I don't want to make it to the top, because when I reach the top is when I've completely let H go.
I'm reaching the end of my rope. I can't do this much longer. I so desperately wanted to save the M. It also looks like that is the ONE THING I will not be able to accomplish.
I need to answer the questions: "What am I going to do?" "Where am I going to go?" Maybe then I can move forward some. I just keep waiting on some miracle to happen. If I give up waiting on the miracle, does that mean I'm doubting God and what he can do? I hope not. But I'm having a hard time finding the balance between faith, and facing reality....as well as the crushing disappointment that things are likely not going to turn out the way I hoped.
Please keep posting, Becky. I find a lot of comfort in your faithfulness and practicality.
