I would like to feel less angry and more at peace regarding husband and my situation. Become more compassionate. This is for me because it doesn't feel good to be angry all the time. To do this... 1. I should look into beginner meditation. 2. More GAL.. go out more and meet more people. 3. Practice gratitude 4. Accept myself for who I am 5. HAVE FUN AGAIN. LAUGH MORE
Julie, these are words to the wise. I am working on becoming wise, so I'm copying these down for myself! It's funny, I'm letting H go, because he seems to need it so badly. Trying to hold on to him was causing us both such intense pain. I still haven't entirely given up on him.
I just keep telling myself that his actions are so out of character for who I know him to be, that he is obviously going through something - it's just something I can't help him with. Letting him go seems to be giving him some peace, but I hate it!
On the other hand, I haven't completely given up hope. I've just given up hope, for now. Who knows what the future will bring? I just know that the damage he is inflicting on himself is so great that he is going to need me to be super-strong if he ever comes back to himself...and super-strong is not even close to how I'd describe myself at the moment.
My plan is to just keep working on me. I'm going to work hard on getting myself out of here. He's killing me slowly, and I just can't deal with it anymore. So, me, me, and me.
One day, I hope to see him return, hat in hand. I want to be strong and forgiving if that day comes. I've got a lot of work to do to get to that point. So your list? Brilliant! Thanks for sharing.
