GAL? Boy do I need to focus on that! This is just so darn confusing. H gives me clear signs he still cares, yet he is completely determined to continue on this path. I don't understand it at all.
Maybe if I find something to do, something to occupy my thoughts other than the destruction of my entire life, I'll be able to start moving forward. I did come to a very important realization yesterday. I have GOT to be stronger. I have got to keep it all together for the sake of the kids.
It just sux, you know? I keep telling myself the DB mantra - it all takes TIME, this didn't happen in a day, and it's not going to get better in a day, either. I just don't know what to do with H pushing me so hard to finalize the D. He already knows I don't believe in it. He must - or he wouldn't be pushing so hard, but that's not the man I've married! Where did that one go?
I wanted to drop in and support you, and instead whined about myself...lol I think you're doing a great job. It's got to be hard with her, right there...and yet, you're doing it. Please keep it up. I'm following along and trying to learn from people like you.
