To contact or not to contact that is the question

[Di-mond]

Jpeg, my H lives there. I go down to see him a couple of times a month. It was a very quiet and uneventful New Years.

I thought about moving there when I sold my house, but opted to stay closer to my children, family and friends. Funny thing is, I think me making the decision to get my own place and start my "new" life up here and not where my H was, scared him.

I did all of it on my own. Partly renovated the house, sold it, found a new place and moved all my stuff. Got mostly all new or new to me furniture. I purged my old life, including everything that reminded or had anything to do with H. I even gave him every single one of our wedding photos. Seriously, besides my wedding and engagement ring, there is nothing in this place that is connected to him.
I had moved forward in my life without him. I'm still moving forward without him. At Christmas he told me that he doesn't want me to move on and be with anyone else. That he misses me and wants to stay married, but give him time to get his head straight. When I go see him now we just try to have a good time. I don't bring up R talk and just let things go for now. Who knows what the future will bring. I'm grateful that I still have H in my life, but will be mindful in 2016 to put myself first and do what's best for me.