Ghost taking baby steps

[ATPeace]

I guess I should have expected that. Ignore my comment about the anger. It's something for the future and each person experiences the stages differently. It could be very mild for you, but again, stop worrying about the hurricane in 3 years when your drowning in one that's happening now.

Fogg I did this about 6 weeks ago I guess you may not know what happened I was snooping ...I know not a good idea ...I have learnt from that .....I found she was reading a book on controlling abusive men and she had underlined loads of things that she felt I had done during the M It made me take a close look at how I had been controlling and think about how it must have made her feel.

I felt like crap when I realised what I had been doing this but there is nothing I can change about the past...

I have realised that I could be the best cleaner and the best child carer and this is good news for her as she knows her children will be cared for but this is not going to bring her back to me as my W

So I think if I look ahead think about moving buying a smaller house on my own what will I end up doing with myself ...today has been playing with the kids and watching TV with my soon to be ex W playing happy family's

Keeping in the here and now ok it has been pleasant today ....she might say in some way false but we have got along sitting in the same room talking with the toddler playing