Ksanti

[Vanilla]

Mutatio

There is still much for you to do for you. Whilst that is unfolding then why make any emotional decisions. You said you were happy to stand, you can enforce boundaries on rudeness though, friendly neighbour seems best.

W is spinning and working through some stuff in IC. That is largely her circus, her monkeys, her poo to throw.

You got your own plus elephant poo shovel.

Let it unfold in time. I sense that ultimately you will become the man only a fool would leave and then you will decide for you. That is your choice that which is best for you, in the meanwhile it's still early days. In house S is very tough I know for me it lasted from 31 December 2013 until 2 May 2015. From the fish wife to the Maggotroni, even at the last it was the lies and outright abuse that made me enforce the boundary "I will not be abused". After that healing. 17 months of in house standing. You may in due course decide on a final date for stopping in house S. That doesn't mean D by the way.

You may never know what is happening in W head, likely scrambled eggs, just as she may never know about your thoughts.

That is how it should be at this stage. There is much benefit in it for you. I know tomorrow will be a tough day, anniversaries always are. I wouldn't mind about the present too much, next time send from all of you. If W would kindly post the present, V would grateful recieve. It is the giving that is important.

Just to let you know I am composing to you off line in word, it's complex for me and the research that I have been doing has given me much useful thought. The way I evaluate childhood issues is evolving as the more recent the scientific study reports I read and research materials I come across the more hope I have. Things are really positive on the healing front.

Thank you Mutatio for allowing me the opportunity to discuss these traumas with you. It isn't an easy journey.

I do have a couple of secret threads if you would prefer more frank discussions away from your thread, we can ask Cadet to delete the thread afterwards too if you like. Certainly done this before with posters here.

Much hugs, I Internet promise to do my very best in this with you.

V