JulieH - thanks I am really going to try to Gal - that is really hard for me. I am an odd combination of introvert/extrovert. With strangers I am so shy and uncomfortable but with people I know I am the life of the party. I am pretty sure legally I can't lock him out of the house he is still half owner It is just not in my nature to put myself first make myself top priority - I guess I have never felt that I am "worth it". And some would say that is a self fulfilling prophesy because now H doesn't think so either