Hi Bttrfly and Vanilla, thanks so much for posting. Bttrfly, yes it affected me seeing SS and hearing a little about what is going on with H. Our sitch is so low contact, that 'contact' with H's life is still rather unsettling. Coupled with the festive season and having less on - I did have a bit of a downer. Plus my NYE plans have fallen through.

However, I had a good night's sleep and I feel more settled this morning. My boss just texted to say there's a problem with the office and I can work from home, which is nice. Then I'm going to head over and stay with my parents tonight and I'm at the bookstore tomorrow. It's not the NYE I hoped for, but I'll make the best of it, and I'm blessed to be able to stay with my folks.

Hope you lovely DBers all have a good new year, whatever plans you may have xox

T 13 M 7
Me 48 H 46
SS 15
BD 7.14 PA
D final 5.16 (H filed)

We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus