[BrightFuture]

mleigh4, yes, you expressed it better than me. Standing for us mean we still have hope. Even though we are moving on with our lives, and you certainly are (so am I to a certain extent), we are still hoping that something will change, our H’s snap out of that funk they are in right now and see what a great life they can have with us.

I’m definitely grateful for the lessons I learnt and still learning through this experience. I just with it would not be as pain full…

There is something I read on Irish’s thread, posted by AJ. I know this has been repeated by all of the vets here. It is that MLCer needs to hit rock bottom to release what they’ve done and start making their way back. I just realized that I interfered with this process by rescuing H once again. In our conversation today he said that he felt very concerned about paying all these money from the company account to avoid taxes. Because it left company accounts at almost nothing. He said that he doesn’t know when he will be paid for his outstanding invoices, and that he will need some operating expense before he can generate new invoices. I told him that I have a couple of checks coming in for my work and that I will leave these money on the account until he gets paid for his work. He was absolutely ecstatic about this, he sounded very happy and thanked me for doing this. This has been written in our history… I always had his back. Didn’t matter if I was angry with him or resentful, I never let him fail on his face. I don’t think he appreciates it to the full extend.

So… I think I just enabled him again… and made his life easier… For a while… I think eventually I need to cut this off and let him deal with what he has to deal with. It will not be pretty if I get out of the company business.