Bring on 2016! Whatever is in that package, we won't know until we force ourselves to open it. I think I'm just going to be happy that I got a package.
So, to celebrate that or not? I've got too many memories of fun-filled parties with lots of children running around in what is technically MY vacation home. This year I'm pretty sure its still going to happen, but I'm just not invited. Still choosing happy, but going to bed early.
M-51 H-54 2D-27 and 25 M-26 yrs Bombshell and IHS 7-29-15 He moved out 10-3-15 D filed 1-27-16 D final 10-27-16
Right now I have no plans. Probably making sad puppy eyes at H if I don't plan something better. Also I have a problem, that is I fall asleep around 10 pm. I think I am going to make some calls tomorrow. I live in a very active, "party" type neighborhood, I'm gonna get myself invited to a party. And go. By myself. I will leave H with the kids.
Nobody is around! All of my friends are going to "couples" parties and also my niece who is staying here with me since Christmas just puked and has a fever and now I am wondering if we are all going to catch whatever it is she has. What I really want to do for NYE is catch up on the Walking Dead so maybe I will do that and hopefully all the kids won't be puking by then or we will be the real walking dead.
I am more than two seasons behind in Walking Dead...lol I don't think I'm going to catch up.
I really hope, for your sake, that all the kids won't be puking up. That's happened to me before, when all 5 had some virus, and it was hell on earth. Baths constantly running, laundry going non-stop, running from room to room. Only once. Never again. Oh! And H was out of town that memorable night. From then on, they never were all sick the same night - they considerately stretched it out...LOL
We cancelled the emergency hearing. H has finally gotten it through his thick head he can't treat me any which way he chooses. He understands there are consequences for his actions. He's also beginning to understand I don't care in the same way I used to.
I've decided any man who can justify doing what he's doing to his family for the sake of his "happiness" is below my personal standards. I was willing to do whatever it took to keep my kids from having to go through this pain. He just "didn't want to". For that, I lost all respect. He's not the father I thought he was. It's making it so much easier to move on.
We go to mediation sometime this month to work out the details. The sooner, the better, for me. I'm ready to move on. I'm still focusing on myself - growing and learning. My goal is to become 100% comfortable in my own skin. I lost who I was while I was married to Mr. Controlling. I'm about 50% of the way there, and I don't plan to stop until I'm fine either by myself or in a room full of people.
I'm remembering things I like. I'm developing my own opinion about things. I'm looking forward to getting some kind of job. I really am looking forward...
Some part of me is going to miss H - but the old H, not this one. I will always love and respect the old H. I'll hang on to those memories, happily. I'm at peace with where I'm at.
With that said, I expect New Year's Eve to be a solitary, lonely affair. I will more than likely sleep through the whole thing, or spend all night here, posting!
