Stupid, I have covered in spades. Cheerful will take effort. But I will try.

I woke up pissed after catching myself trying to roll toward my wife to cuddle/grope. Yes I know the difference, and no I wasn't looking for just spooning. I jumped out of bed and decided I needed to do something, anything to distract myself.

So I made coffee and left for a drive. No destination. No direction. I don't even know where I went. Or how long I was gone. All I know is I needed to leave. To be alone with my thoughts.

At some point I decided I needed to be more proactive about getting things done for ME. No one else. ME. So I said hello to my wife's parents, got some coffee and went outside to change my car's oil. I came back and noticed the dynamic hadn't changed so I left again to get a haircut. Then i did some work and listened to music. Next thing i know, I found out my wife and mil were going out for a mommy-daughter day.

I don't know what this says about me, my relationship, or my in-laws, but I was ecstatic. The rest of the day went smoothly (my fil and I don't have as many issues), and I'm getting ready to make dinner. Mood brightened, and now my wife is helping me make dinner.

I might just make it through this week yet. Deep breaths and wine might also help

Last edited by SciDad; 12/30/15 11:41 PM.
Me-38 W-38; T-15 M-12;
S10 and S6
BD - July 2016; EA confirmed; confronted Aug 2015
EA dissolved 12/2016

Never make someone a priority when all you are to them is an option - Maya Angelou