Oh Inpain. I don't know what to say. There is so much you can take. I have to say that it made me smile when you H said it was too late as you asked him to leave. See how he is putting the blame on you. Let me guess he didn't try to make you change your mind. Like my H, I truly believe that they are cowards and that we made the decision for them.
TBH I remember regretting kicking him out, but not anymore. I don't like who he has become. I can feel little by little the door closing and I'm no longer dreading the D word.
It's sad that it has to come to this end, but I don't want to suffer anymore. I don't want to be unhappy anymore. I'm only 40 and still have a life ahead of me.
Hang in there Inpain, I'll walk the road with you and if you stumble I'll pick you up. Have faith
