RD thank you it is about hope and me not wanting to give up this hope
I worry about letting go of that hope and her realising this and then she moves us to the next stage or I could let go of this hope and I could move us to the next stage...I am not looking to divorce so ^^^this is a circle of crazy making...just GET off the roller coaster you are making.
the next stage for me is to GAL and do more things for myself I realise in doing ts she will see me going out and she will also go out more and so we will spiral apart
You're so wildly inaccurate about your "take" on what MIGHT happen, it's baffling. You think what you are doing now is working great...wth?
How could GAL and becoming a happier more interesting LESS NEEDY man, hurt anyone, least of all you?
from each other. I need to let go
It is my fear for not having her in my life that is holding me back and despite everything I know and understand my M is over and nothing will ever be the same again a small part of me thinks ...just how over is it .......we have moved to friend status and this is not what I want but I realise I cannot push for anything
I have had several stfu moments today where I have felt things have been going well and I wanted to say look can you not see how we are getting along surley it must be worth trying to work on this for the kids then I stfu as I know I have to.
RD I feel the point that I need to get to is selling the house and separating completely from her but then I feel everything really changes and I just do not feel ready ...will I ever be ready No, Not with your present approach. All I'm reading in your post is need and FEAR and fear based "Decision making" and going in circles.
Call the IC.
Just have to go out pick u daughter Sandi I will reply later to your post thank you
Ghost
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
