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#2635987 12/29/15 10:08 AM
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Me: 48, XH: 42
T: 18 years, M: 15 years

EA/PA 1: 6/2012
EA/PA 2: from autumn 2012-present

BD: 5/2013
ILYBNILWY BD & left: 10/2015

OW conceived: 8/2016
Born: 4/2017

H filed: 7/2017
D final: 28/12/2017
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So, I was able to offer some help to one of my colleagues at my part-time job.

But the conversation turned a very unexpected route, and in the end, he may be the one helping *me* out: I may have the chance of working abroad for a month or so at some point in the next year.

After our quick chat I got in touch with someone I know (in my H's industry) about this. I've worked for her in the past, she has a high opinion of my work but has always thought I should push myself more. She also has the connections to help me out.

And (get this...) she thinks it's a great idea!

I think I'm going to speak to her some time after the new year about it.

My part time job is zero hours, so I could easily go away for a month and then come back to it.

I feel pretty darn excited about this. I never got the chance to travel when I was in my 20s. I went from an undergraduate degree, straight into a six year postgrad (during which I worked the whole time), then straight into getting married and looking after my H.

It's going on my homework storyboard that my counsellor set me smile


Me: 48, XH: 42
T: 18 years, M: 15 years

EA/PA 1: 6/2012
EA/PA 2: from autumn 2012-present

BD: 5/2013
ILYBNILWY BD & left: 10/2015

OW conceived: 8/2016
Born: 4/2017

H filed: 7/2017
D final: 28/12/2017
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I am not familiar with your circumstance but this opportunity seems like a perfect thing for professional and personal growth. Is the location some where warm with tropical drinks?



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Brilliant!!

No reason why it shouldn't be, mutatio wink

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Me: 48, XH: 42
T: 18 years, M: 15 years

EA/PA 1: 6/2012
EA/PA 2: from autumn 2012-present

BD: 5/2013
ILYBNILWY BD & left: 10/2015

OW conceived: 8/2016
Born: 4/2017

H filed: 7/2017
D final: 28/12/2017
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So I answered my H's Christmas eve text asking me how I was etc., a few days later, on the 28 December. I told him I was doing 'really great, thanks' and that was it. Nothing further from him, but I guess it's early days yet.

I'm at the point where I'm not sure what I want any more.

I'm definitely not attracted to the person that my H has become over the past 5 years. I definitely don't want my old R and M back. And I'm not missing him or our R/M either.

I feel like I've travelled way too far along the road away from all of that to ever even want to go back now. That all seems kinda lost in the mists.

I know I'm definitely not interested in being his friend while he pursues another R with another woman

So what now?


Me: 48, XH: 42
T: 18 years, M: 15 years

EA/PA 1: 6/2012
EA/PA 2: from autumn 2012-present

BD: 5/2013
ILYBNILWY BD & left: 10/2015

OW conceived: 8/2016
Born: 4/2017

H filed: 7/2017
D final: 28/12/2017
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Aw man, just had an email from my MIL.

She says that she knows that I will sort my life out, because that's the kind of person that I am.

She also said that my H has a new girlfriend, which I probably knew about.

She said it means that everyone is having to adjust.


I feel a bit flipping crushed. I can feel my heart pounding and I feel physically sick too. Can someone please help me out?

Last edited by focus22; 12/30/15 12:53 PM.

Me: 48, XH: 42
T: 18 years, M: 15 years

EA/PA 1: 6/2012
EA/PA 2: from autumn 2012-present

BD: 5/2013
ILYBNILWY BD & left: 10/2015

OW conceived: 8/2016
Born: 4/2017

H filed: 7/2017
D final: 28/12/2017
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Breathe. Don't give up.
Keep reading these posts.


11/4/15 W revealed EA/2 months later became PA with co-worker
Reconciling since late April 2016
Don't give up until it's time, then move on
Be patient, strong and kind but never a doormat
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Focus22 I am so sorry I understanding what you are feeling. I don't know what to say to help you but I wanted to let you know that I have felt the same way when family tells me to move on or just that they seem to think it is acceptable that there is a new girlfriend


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Oh Focus, I'm so sorry to hear that.
It's a kick in the stomach when the OW is confirmed. I know exactly how you fee.
Just keep breathing and posting.

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Thank you NYGal, Jpeg, Gmum.

I walked into work and back. With my job as well, I've ended up walking 10k today. I'm quite tired now, for which I'm incredibly grateful.

I still feel a bit shell shocked again. What on earth is going on?


Me: 48, XH: 42
T: 18 years, M: 15 years

EA/PA 1: 6/2012
EA/PA 2: from autumn 2012-present

BD: 5/2013
ILYBNILWY BD & left: 10/2015

OW conceived: 8/2016
Born: 4/2017

H filed: 7/2017
D final: 28/12/2017
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