Recent Hurricane 2

[NateG79]

Journaling:

Today some back and forth texting. Mostly initiated by WW. A lot of it was just me texting pics of D2 playing at my house. She will be going to W's place tomorrow to spend some time with her as W has not been with her since last Thursday because of bad weather. She sent me a text about how she hadn't looked at her Meyer's Briggs profile and said she took a new one, and sent me her result and said, just if you care to know. I validated that, and she asked what I think I would be. I told her I would do it, and see what the outcome is. Turns out, we have the exact same profile. I joked how ironically we had the same thing. She also laughed and suggested maybe we should try another site.

Then, I asked her if I could ask her one thing, without any pressure or feeling that she needed to answer me. I asked her, since her Affidavit of Indigence form is all she needed to sign in order to have me served, I simply asked, is it your intent to go ahead and sign it and file for D.

She stated that she would have to make an appointment to go sign the affidavit and when she has the appointment, she could speak to an attorney. She's already been given the name, but that the letter stated that once signed, that it would serve me. She said, I'm not ready. Something held her back. And only very recently had she even contemplated the possibility of reconciliation. She also stated that she is putting an incredible amount of trust and faith in me by telling me this, and to not use it against her (i'm not sure what she meant by that.)

I stated I appreciated her being honest with me about it, and that I too had had that feeling when after the discovery of the A, the next day I had gone to a D lawyer, but I was not happy with everything he said, and I decided that I didn't want to jump off that ledge, and backed down, and made no other attempts to file. I felt that if I filed for D, it was just me giving up, and quitting on trying to have a whole family. And I just didn't want to quit on my family.

She stated she was concerned they would serve me if she went down there, so she hasn't called them.

She stated that she's been very emotionally turned off for the most part since all of this happened, just running on auto pilot, but still kept herself from filing.

I told her I wouldn't break her trust with any friends or family with that (once again, I don't know what she meant there). And then I replied that it did mean a lot to me that she felt the same way.

She stated it was NOT because "Plan A" wasn't panning out. It was NEVER like that. I am not, and never was a plan B. She just couldn't bring herself to file.

I thanked her for saying that, and that's all I wanted to ask.

And then the kicker:
She says "I am glad you feel like you can talk to me."

I simply stated: I am too.

Thoughts here?