B's 10-Week Bootcamp

[Bfice3]

Hey all. Still around. Made it through another day without contacting my wife. 2 in a row now.

I was pretty bummed earlier today when I looked on facebook and I saw that she had set her relationship status to nothing. It doesn't say anything, just 'relationship information unavailable' if I click on that tab.

Oh well...she's going to do what she's going to do. But it still hurt.

I chatted a little bit with a woman today, but it was nothing more than a few sentences. Also RSVP'ed on a nature hike for this Friday that is with a divorce/separated group of people via meetup.

What else...well...I had a meeting with our priest today. It was actually pretty good. He didn't get all caught up in the dogma of religion and preachy about potential divorce. I was very open and honest about where I was/am regarding my alcoholism, the separation with my wife, and my desire to get God to be more present in my life.

Towards the end, I was expressing how I would like to do some type of service work, so he asked me if I would go with a deacon from our church to go pray with a woman from an elderly housing facility. I said sure.

The crazy part of the day came tonight, when I went to an AA meeting. And all of a sudden the same deacon from this morning walks in. And I was totally shocked. But apparently, our priest, set it up so that he and I would meet. It was actually really amazing, and I ended up feeling extremely touched, and I think/hope the deacon did too.

We are going to go back tomorrow morning to meet with the lady at the housing unit, and he expressed a desire to talk with me, because he's only a couple of months ahead of me in my sobriety.

What [censored] is this is the kind of crazy story that I would love to share with my wife, and I think she would be very happy to know that it was happening, but I'm not going to even mention it to her. (For one thing, there is a desire from our deacon to remain with as much of a level of anonymity as he can maintain, but also, I don't want to get caught up in sharing with my wife and end up pursuing or invading her space.)

Anywho...I hope that anyone who has read and commented on the posts from yesterday maybe can get a little more insight into who I am, and what it is I actually desire and am looking for. I'm not a bad guy, and I'm not trying to go out and mess up myself or any other woman. Just seeking help in as many ways as I can.