Now you know, now you move forward without your H.
You already do pretty much everything for your kids. Don't count or rely on him for any help with them. I know it [censored] and sometimes I still have glimmers of anger at my kids father for totally walking away from them almost 8 years ago. I made mistakes, but I tried. My kids have issues, but then what kids don't. They are good. They love me and they know I love them. You do the best you can for them and one of those things is being happy yourself.
You are a fantastic mother and inspiring woman.
Di-mond in the rough M-45 H-38 My children S-25 D-23 T 5 M 4 H left April Fools Day 2015