Taking back control of my life 3

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Hang in there Rouky. You have done nothing wrong. There may be something that you could do differently but that doesn't mean you have done it wrong. I think that you are getting to the root of the issue when you say that you feel like second hand goods and are unlovable. Could it be that you have always felt that way. I think that you need to tell your counselor exactly what you said in your post. Maybe you have already but sitting right here I know that the opposite is true and that you are amazing and you are a dream girl! You need to do the work that gets you to where you can see that in yourself. Maybe it was your childhood or maybe it was your marriage that made you feel that way but it is not the truth and healing for you will be at the end of working through that.

At some point my cousin told me that she wished that I could see myself the way others do. I wish the same for you and believe me when I say that it is only the distance that keeps me away from you. You are special and you are going to survive this and you will blossom into the most lovely flower that will be to die for. Hang tough Rouky.