Now what?

[melweb]

Fo--TxHub does give really good advice, and I am working really hard to heed it. Easier said than done sometimes.

At the moment, for instance feeling not very detached as he just told me is going to a party on New Years Day, at home of brother of possible A--its three hours away. I was kinda crushed. As I said it felt like we/he was working on the M--we take one step forward and two steps back. I said he "didn't want to sit here for three days". I said "me either" Said he is trying to be honest (HAHA) and he is not sure if he is staying or leaving, I said I understood that. He said "this is where he is in his life, he needs to feel alive" I said "you mean single" and he said "Maybe"

He is out right now, so I gotta pull it together fast. And find something to do on New Years Day

Fo-I am doing ok with sleep I guess. I am so exhausted, I don't really have a choice. I fall asleep ok, but wake up around 1 or 2. Then I take a Simply Sleep, its only 25 mgs, so it gets me thru til morning.