Feeling Numb

[Elly4]

Hi Zephyr! No time, no see. My job is going well most of the time. A lot of pressure, but a good kind if you know what I mean.

My exercising is going okay. I'm a lot more active because of work and have gone down two pant sizes. I still have a bunch more to lose. Recently I've been not losing weight, but definitely firming up. Stuff I can actually see in the mirror. I had to give up my membership to the gym as I truly have no time to drive the 45 mins there and then back again in my schedule. So, I'm doing weights and exercises at home twice a day.

My s and I are having play dates when we can, some museum hopping and just hanging out with each other. He still doesn't know what going to happen on the 9th.

I am still teaching agility and trying to get out sometimes for myself on Sundays. It's hard recently as I'm finding myself not wanting to go without my S as I'm about to go into share mode with him. But it's healthier for us both if I do go out sometimes.

Please, Please, pick on me I have a tendency to just go into survival mode instead DB mode.

I'm feeling very lonely lately. He told his mom last night apparently, and it went okay. She asked if he had a place to live and left it at that, if he's telling me the truth. So now I'm wondering if I lost his family too.

It would be very easy to sit on the couch and watch tv all the time.