LBH w/ a WXW after the D - now what

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OTW, I'm not sure I am still dbing. I don't know what I'm doing other than moving on with my life. I don't think it's disrespectful for me to be out all night. She is no longer my W and it was by her choice.

I do feel guilty about not returning and playing with D4. I feel guilty that she will not have the family she should have, at least at this time. I do believe we could come back together as a traditional family in the future but WXW will need to get her head out of this fantasy she is still in.

I find myself needing to forgive her dozens of times a day. I know I'll forgive her but she'll need to do the work if she wants to reconcile. She hasn't been out all night in several weeks.

She was gentle and kind again last night. She wanted to show me a couple pics of the place she is buying. Hugs and "I love you" this morning. So weird.