Taking back control of my life 3

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I know what you mean Rouky about a step back. I was doing really well right up to Christmas day. I was happy and enjoying the season and my friends and family and then wham. I am still digging my way out and it is four days later. Now I am dreading New Years Eve and how much fun my wife will be having without me. That will not change where I am and how far I have come though.

I too am in a small town and constantly run into people who remind me of my problems. I have to try to avoid the places that she frequents and the gym where she works out. I know that I am better when I don't have to look at her. Also her family is reaching out to me and trying to have a relationship with me and that makes it hard.

Rouky I know that I have a lot of advantages in this that you don't have but I know that you can do it. All I have to do is read one of your posts and I get stronger and my faith grows. Together we will survive this and will go on to something better.

As for the flirting I would not be let your connection to your husband affect your having fun. I'm sure that if your town is anything like mine then everyone already knows what an idiot he is. Get your a$$ out there and shake it! This is about you now and how you are going to enjoy life. I would drag you out and make you have fun if I could but there is some cute guy over there who will do the same thing. If not a guy then a girlfriend!

Come on Rouky let's pick ourselves up and finish this year and jump off into the new one. We can do this, me with your help and you with mine. Here for you always.