Shotgun you are so kind. You are spot on about my contact with H. When I don't see him, I'm fine but it's when I see him that it all goes wrong. I feel that being in the marital home doesn't help as I can't stop him from accessing the house. I can't wait to sell it now :-)!
Funny as H is no longer pushing for the sale. Maybe OW is pushing for him to buy a house together once ours is sold.
I do my best to look nice every day ( nice clothes, make up and perfume). I live in a small town so many people know me because of my job or because of whom I am married to, so it makes it a bit harder to flirt.
I know I'll be fine once I'm back at work and the festive season out of the way. I knew this time of year would be hard but I wasn't expecting it to be such a step back!
