B's 10-Week Bootcamp

[Bfice3]

So, here's the thing. I work from home. I don't have a sister. I don't have a mom. I don't have an aunt or any family members at all that I can speak with. The only woman that was in my life decided she wanted me out of the house.

I don't have to do Tinder or OkCupid. Meetup.com has things where divorced/separated people go to do stuff. I actually just got a message from a girl on OkCUpid informing me of that. If you cuold read my profile on OKCupid, its worse than these threads. Its awful. Trust me, there isn't going to be a relationship.

To me, this is me doing a 180. I don't know. Is it risky? Sure. Could it backfire? Yes. Is it the right thing? I have no idea.

I dont know what the right thing is anymore.

But, if I'm honest with anyone I'm talking to, I don't see how its hurting them.

I really don't think this is about paying my wife back. I'm not angry. I wasn't angry yesterday. I honestly feel more cathartic than anything...like things are more clear. I understand that I wasn't just completely paranoid. I know for sure now that she's been lying her teeth off, even when she said she wasn't.

Is this me setting myself up for failure? Maybe. But, I mean, I have to GAL right?