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[Mona52]

I cant stop thinking about the fun I am having lately. But it is bittersweet. I cant help thinking how perfect it would be if... I have the strongest urges to call H.

I will be fine without him. I dont feel hopelessness about my future. I feel fear. I am meeting new people, doing crazy new things. No less than 6 guys told me last night how beautiful my smile is because I cant stop smiling and laughing the entire night. A new chapter is bound to start soon. I dont mean with Chris. But I am perfectly positioned to meet the next ex-husband...

I cant make my H hurry, and I think it is too late for me to wait. Every day I feel further away from him, but my urges are also getting stronger. This is a first for me. Last time I firmly stood and I only went out on a few dates after years of standing, even then I still only wanted H, and I had no fun dating. This time, I am both giving up and not giving up.

Because my days are so lonely. I spend hours wishing I could send a stupid text to someone. I spend daydreams wishing for a hug. You guys are great, but let's face it,this site is a sad place to hang out and I need fun and belly laughs.