staying strong here! I swept through the holidays alone just fine. Better than i thought. I guess all this pain has made me numb , and really theres no more pain ( at times). I still get those random emotional roller coasters which i think is normal. This sunday i was having a nice steak and when i was almost finished with it tears of emotion came out of nowhere. It's weird.Yesterday a female friend of mine invited me for her bday gathering with all her close friends and her husband to a indoor golf facility. First time playing golf here ( i failed miserably) She told me she saw my wife at a store named Michaels on christmas eve, ( they were highschool friends) she told she was alone and just asked her how she was doing. She said my 2nd daughter is starting to take her first steps. She also said my wife looked too skinny , she was already skinny as is , but said it looked unhealthy. Anyway she just wanted to let me know.
I wish i was there for my wife , i just have a strong feeling she is going through something and God i wish i was there to show her comfort. But unfortunately theres nothing i can do right now. Taking it day by day. Today i went to a clothing store to buy me a tailored suit. I am trying to look really nice on court day Jan6. I bought me a fitted suit and the little who helped was all over me haha, she kept saying i looked very attractive and was jealous of my wife, ( if only she knew). That brought confidence to me, something that was always lacking when i was in my old marriage. I am at peace guys , even through this whole mess. I always thank God for that.
