LBH w/ a WXW after the D - now what

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Feyth, tl2 and sandi, Thank you for stopping by.

Sandi- that's hilarious. Still being Mr. Cool

Let the WTF continue........
On Christmas eve she gave me a hug then said " I want to be better, I'm working at being better. I'm really trying and I want to be great. I want to start couples counseling when you're ready or if you want to. We could get a new couples counselor and start counseling if you want to."

I almost fell over. I wasn't sure what to say. Luckily I was headed out the door to do my Christmas shopping. Later we all went to church Me, WXW, D4 the boys and their Dad and then we went to my house and had tamales.

WXW put the kids to bed, brought out all the presents and then messed around. Felt a little weird.

Christmas was great! The kids had a blast. The boys Dad came over again. We all hung out and had a really nice day. That night WXW said there were a bunch of movies she would like to see, asked if I wanted to go to the movies and then started naming all the movies she wanted to see. I didn't respond and ducked into the shower. Later that night we messed around again.

Saturday I was gone all day shopping with a friend and didn't go home til Sunday morning around 10am. I went to church then home. D4 said "Daddy can we play legos and watch TV as a family?" She is so precious it makes my heart hurt. I told her I would be back later. I knew I needed to leave. WXW can't feel the loss of what she has done if I'm always around. I didn't return until this morning and just popped in early to get work clothes. Didn't see anyone

Last night WXW sent this msg
"don't tell D4 you're coming home to play legos and watch tv. She asked several times today when you would be home. She said you're a liar. And don't ever try to take advantage of me again. I knew you just wanted sex and you were using me."

This morning I responded
" I agree and understand what you are saying. I hope you'll hold yourself to the same standard. I have had several of these conversations with D4. Take advantage of you?"

then through a series of more messages She denied breaking promises to D4 and I reminded her of several occasions that she did. She said I wasn't owning what I did. My last message was
"What? Do you read my messages? I started by saying I agree and understand. And then I asked you to hold yourself to the same standard.
You've been really kind and gentle this last week. I hope it continues. If not, don't contact me."

She replied "your need to get the last word is funny"
Which in itself is ironic because she is demonstrating her need to get the last word.

I think she is realizing she has lost me. I do love her and I will take her back if she gets healthy. I'm not getting back on this crazy train the way it is.